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Your name is Image hosted by servimg.com and you've been put on this planet for seemingly one purpose. It's a good thing people like your stuff otherwise you would have been Image hosted by servimg.com long ago. You're a hooman being with an interest in a fuckton of music, Harvest Moon, Pokemon, various vidya games, Skyrim, and Homestuck. You're currently Image hosted by servimg.com years old. Your favorite color is Image hosted by servimg.com.

You identify most with Image hosted by servimg.com, and it is a personal goal of yours to be able to learn how to play the Image hosted by servimg.com. You have quite the crush on Image hosted by servimg.com who is way too cool for the likes of you anyway. Your current song of choice to listen to is Image hosted by servimg.com.

What will you do now?

I have a Moirail~ :iconbelgarion489:
Daughter-in-law Done Rocket Raccoon WAT Madestic Sour Cherry Pasta Ballsy Belly Dancing Keypy Creepy Drunk Nope Murdering AppleSpider~ :iconhollowgod696:

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It's Coming

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 21, 2015, 8:24 PM


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  • Playing: Huniepop
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To My Watchers

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 14, 2015, 2:03 PM
Sorry I haven't been putting up many stories lately. There is a shortage of workers at my job, and just this week alone they had me working 58 hours. Of course, I didn't get that many through other reasons. One of my coworkers grabbed me by surprise and squeezed me as tight as he could. Unfortunately, he popped my rib. [Think of it like someone cracking your back, only that sound happens on your left side ribs].

My mother persuaded me to go to the ER yesterday [4/13 lol] and it was concluded that I have inflammation between the ribs and that they are bruised. I was given today off to rest, and that's what I'm doing. I'll pick back up with the writing when I'm in the right emotional, physical, and mental state. Thank you c:

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  • Playing: Solitaire
  • Eating: Nothing
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xbox live!

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 21, 2015, 1:51 PM
I finally have some because I have internet at my house now lol. Soooo. If you wanna add me on there just let me know in a note. Ill toss over my nametag (which isn't this username surprisingly) and hopefully we can play some games together!

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  • Drinking: Cranberry juice

A look into the morning of Nat

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 16, 2015, 7:49 AM

For the past month or so, I’ve had about three types of dreaming. The first is the interesting dream, where it’s so random I don’t even know what’s going on. The second, and my favorite, is when I don’t dream at all. It’s just go to sleep and then wake up. The third is when my ex-boyfriend has somehow found his way into my dreams.

It is then that I find myself waking up, crying to my body to make my mind stop. Recently for the past two weeks, I try to get as little sleep as possible. ie; I go to bed at 3 and set multiple alarms to get up at 9, or I go to bed at 4 and wake up at 7:45. I do this so I don’t enter the deep REM sleep that dreams come from.

I don’t want the dreams. I actually woke up one morning, thinking about how I needed to get some medicine that didn’t make me dream [like a dreamless sleep potion in Harry Potter]. Unfortunately, stuff like that doesn’t exist. I bought some Z-Quil the other day, so hopefully when I take that, it’ll cause deep enough sleep to where I don’t dream.

It’s actually my only hope. Otherwise I’m stuck between killing myself because of lack of sleep [when driving to work or just tiredness and unwillingness to do things] or getting sleep but waking up and sobbing before going about my day, with random crying interventions.

One thing to note is that if I cry over something in my day, every time I see or hear anything that reminds me of it, I tear up a lot easier. Because my eyes are used to the crying already you see? And it’s not a good thing when I’m in my work parking lot, ready to go inside, with tears streaming down my face. I’m a pretty private person, and that practically screams to the world ‘Hey! There’s something fucked up about me and my life! Come see the freak show!’

It breaks my heart that I haven’t heard his voice or seen my ex-boyfriend in a month, but he invades my dreams like a jerk. As if to say ‘I’m still with you, even though the real me doesn’t want to be.”

I don’t know how much more I can take.



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[Jake x Reader]

Part II;; follows Time

[>Two years later]

My darling Rook,

It's been a few years now since we had to part ways. I imagine that you would be in your stage of terrible two's now. Getting into everything, annoying your daddy and me. But we'd love you all the more for it. I can almost envision what life would be like now if you had been born. Harder for us, sure, but it would have been wonderful at the same time. Your dad is almost done with medical school. He's just making his rounds at all the hospitals now.

Your dad is one smart cookie! And what do I do? What I'm doing for you now of course! I write. Novels, poems, prose, you name it. I don't get paid much, but that's because your mom is working hard to create that next best seller. Oh, it sounds like your father is home. He still doesn't know what I did, but I'll tell him someday. Out of my love for both of you. Wherever you are, I hope you're okay.

Mom

Closing the baby journal, [Name] ran her fingers over the embossed name: Rook Joseph English.

"For what once was and what could have been," the girl whispered, rising from her chair and tucking the book into the back of her manuscript shelf. She knew it was safe there. Jake never touched her manuscripts without her permission. Hearing the front door close, [Name] skipped down the stairs and into Jake's arms.

"Hullo to you too, love," the man said, laughing as he caught the springy woman. "How was your day?"

"Just a tad boring without you," [Name] said pouting. "What about yours?"

"Making the commute to the different hospitals is a bit tiresome, but we're almost done. That doctorate is within my grasp; I can feel it. Soon you'll be calling me Doctor English."

"Oh really?"

"Yes really." Jake buried his face in [Name]'s collarbone with a smile. "I'm tired. Can I go take a nap?"

"I guess so lazy man."

"Hey! I'll have you know-"

"I was kidding, love. Go take a nap. Dinner will be ready when you get up."

"Gadzooks. I'm lucky to have you, [Name]. I don't know what I'd do without you."

She just smiled. "I'm luckier my dear."

--

After cleaning the kitchen, rearranging some of dishes, and fixing up a quick dinner, [Name] crept upstairs to the bedroom. Jake was splayed out across the bed, his glasses tossed carelessly on the bedside table. Smiling to herself, the girl wandered over to his side of the bed. Reaching out, she shook his shoulder. "Jake?"

Snatching her around the waist, Jake tugged [Name] into bed with him and wrapped his arms around her. "Tired."

"Well I see that! But dinner is ready-"

"Sleepy. Not hungry."

"Alright, well I am so-"

"When are we gonna have a baby?"

[Name] stilled before turning a bit to look at Jake face to face. "What's up with the sudden question?"

"Not so sudden," the boy admitted with a sheepish smile. "When I found Rose's pregnancy test in our trash, I was so excited. Because I thought it was yours, and I thought we were going to have a child."

Guilt settled heavy in [Name]'s stomach. Tell him now! Tell him the truth!

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, love. I didn't think a raccoon would have his happy way with our trash and you would find it."

"S'okay. I think I would just like a little you running around here soon."

"Me too," [Name] whispered, thinking of her Rook. "Me too."

--

Sweet baby,

I'm trying to find the right words to say to your daddy. He still doesn't know about you. I'm sorry, my little RJ. I still feel a little guilty for keeping such a secret from him, but I don't know how to start or even when my thinking is supposed to end. Will I ever truly forget what I did? I did it not only for myself and your daddy, but also for you. Things would have been hard on us all, my love. I'm sorry that you were essentially caught in the crossfire. I wasn't ready, your daddy wasn't ready.

Obviously you were ready though weren't you? For a time, I was happy that I was going to have you. But life just doesn't work that way sometimes. I'm sorry, my Rook. I'm sor-

"What are you writing?"

[Name] jumped, slamming the book shut. "Jake! You scared the life out of me!"

His eyes caught the name of the title. "Rook Joseph English?"

Her hand slid across the name and covered it. "Yeah. I thought it was a nice name."

Jake placed his hand on top of hers. "Is this real? Are you-?"

"No." She slid her hand away, wrapping her arms around herself.

"I don't-oh, [Name]. Did you lose him?"

"By choice."

"Choice? How can that-Rose. The clinic. The test. It was yours. You had an abortion." Jake stumbled back from [Name], his eyes wide in confusion. "Why?"

"For us," she whispered, turning away from him. "With the student loans, you hardly being home when you have heavy hospital duty rounds. We weren't ready."

"That was not your choice to make!"

"Fuck you! It was my choice to make. It's my body, and it's my future!"

"It was my child! You could have at least had the courtesy to let me know, 'Oh hey Jake, by the way, I have something to tell you. I killed our child for us. I hope you're okay with that.'"

"At that early stage, it can hardly be called a fucking child. And you know what, Rose had one too months previous. We share the same sentiment about it being a bad time in our lives. I don't want to grow a child within my body for nine months only to fucking give it away."

"Why wouldn't we have kept him?!"

"Because I wasn't ready! We had just bought the house, my writing career wasn't kicking off as I had hoped, and you were busy with schoolwork day after day. And you're trying to tell me that we would have been able to raise a child? I write to him, to keep his memory alive. I feel sorry for what I did, but I'd do it again in the same situation."

"So instead of confiding in me, your boyfriend and the father of your child, you decided to gung-ho off on your own? We could have made it work, and if you truly believed we couldn't, then I could have been there for you. Instead, you went with your best friend and you lied to me. For two years!"

"I didn't lie. I just didn't tell you the entire truth. It wasn't the right time, and you know what, I'm thinking that the right time might never come."

[Name] shoved Jake out of the way and left the room, heading down the stairs and grabbing her keys that were hanging up on the wall.

"Where are you going?" The boy asked, coming down the stairs after her.

"I'm going to stay with my abortion buddy. I hope that's fucking okay."

"Wait, [Name] I-" He winced as the door slammed behind her. Running a hand through his hair, Jake sat on the bottom step of the stairs and buried his face in his hands. "Fuck."
109. Write
I didn't expect thERE WOULD BE A PART THREE?!

Ugh. 4am probs.

Fun facts:
*Joseph is my ex-boyfriend's name. I need to stop putting him in everything. ;w; I miss him and love him okay.
*Rook is actually what I'm going to name my future son. A shout out to chess [which my brother and ex love]. My Joseph actually made a joke when I told him the name. "C'mon Rook, don't be such a pawn." My lovable jackass. Or rather not mine anymore.

-w-

From here: 200 Prompts

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Top Image (c) Ikimaru again! Seriously check out the artwork lol
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It's Coming

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 21, 2015, 8:24 PM


  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Wade
  • Reading: --
  • Watching: Wade
  • Playing: Huniepop
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

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DouglastheDragon01 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
ho-my-god senpai gave me a llama!
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NatsNeko Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I believe you gave me one first. I get one and then I give one c: It's common courtesy.
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DouglastheDragon01 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Still, thank you! :]
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crazycats161616 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the llama!!!
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121339 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Professional General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN! Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D KimRaiFan's Bday Cake 
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greenstar2001 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! happy DA B-day :3 Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D 
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DanniPrincessofPower Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday *gives a cake, a hug, then flies away.
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JenThaoS Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Student Writer
happy birthday! :D
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Oh goodness gracious! Multiple best birthday wishes to you dearie! I hope you'll be just as great as ever after
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Happy birthday deary! c:
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